HungerFF Presents: Brolapse

Episode 80:COVID to Confidence: PeteLDNFF on Growth, Grit & Letting Go

HungerFF Presents: Brolapse

Show Notes

This week on Brolapse, Ryan James sits down with UK creator PeteLDNFF for a conversation that goes way deeper than you’d expect.

What starts as a story about discovering fisting turns into something much bigger—growth, resilience, and learning how to trust your body. Pete opens up about his early struggles, from painful setbacks and injuries to nearly giving up altogether, before finally finding his rhythm during lockdown. Like a lot of people, COVID became an unexpected turning point—but for him, it unlocked something real.

The two dive into how access to better tools, patience, and consistency completely changed Pete’s experience, and why so many people get it wrong in the beginning. There’s a candid discussion about ego, pretending to be more experienced than you are, and why that mindset can backfire fast.

They also get into the mental side of it all—body confidence, putting yourself out there, and how content creation became a way for Pete to take control of how he saw himself. Losing over 80 pounds wasn’t just physical—it was the start of a bigger transformation.

Plus: chaotic toy sessions, the reality of editing burnout, wild event stories from Europe, and why chemistry and trust matter more than anything else. Whether you’re experienced or just curious, this episode is packed with real insight, humor, and a lot of “yeah… we’ve all been there” moments.

New episodes of Brolapse drop every Friday at 8PM. Spotify subscribers get early video access.

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