Show Notes
In this episode of Wired for Well-Being, Dr. Jeffrey Rutstein explores what he calls ”regret in the rearview mirror” — that nagging feeling that you took the wrong turn, made the wrong call, walked away from the version of yourself you were supposed to become. Joined by his co-host Steve, who volunteers his own story of leaving music decades ago, Jeffrey traces how old decisions get replayed and rewritten by a nervous system in shutdown — where the same choice that once protected you starts to look like proof of failure. He unpacks the shame-blame-regret triangle, the way state drives story, and the difference between honest regret and the kind that quietly hardens into self-blame. What emerges is a tender reframe: the decisions we punish ourselves for were almost always made for safety, not weakness — the nervous system doing what nervous systems do, keeping us alive in the moment we needed it most. For anyone carrying a wrong-turn story they can’t quite put down, this episode offers a quiet permission to look back differently, and to recognize the part of you that’s still trying to find its way home.
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