Moon to Moon

223. Staying With Your Magic When It's Unclear with Caroline Durlacher and Mellie Test

Moon to Moon

Show Notes

In this episode, Britten LaRue is joined by Caroline Durlacher and Mellie Test for a conversation on staying with your magic when it's unclear, inspired by the Eight of Swords. Together they reflect on what it's like to be in a long creative process - where clarity doesn't always arrive on the timeline the mind wants - and how The Magician's Table can function as a container that supports devotion, experimentation, and self-recognition. They explore the tension between money as feedback and the ways it can distort our relationship to magic, while naming the relief and power of letting your practice be emergent: trusting transmission, honoring cave time, and creating without needing permission, justification, or proof.

Topics They Cover: Returning to The Magician's Table twice: resistance, refinement, and the intelligence of coming back

Money as feedback vs. money as proof and how tying magic to material success can cloud clarity

Devotion to process: luxuriating in the process, experimentation, and letting your work evolve moment to moment

Cave time, invisibility, and staying with your magic during unclear or non-linear seasons

Self-recognition as the true initiation and claiming you are magical without needing external validation

About Caroline Durlacher: Caroline Durlacher is a former literature & philosophy PhD candidate turned Emergent Business mentor for divergent thinkers & creative visionaries. She helps what she calls "Artists under Capitalism" & "Emergent Practitioners" turn their deep devotions & uncontainable work into online business ecosystems that generate wealth, visibility, and cultural power. When you're ready to make money by building worlds with your art, her work is for you. INSTAGRAM: @carolinedurlacher SUBSTACK: Ways of Knowing

About Mellie Test: Mellie is a playful, multi-disciplinary practitioner and catalyst whose work spans movement, fitness, visual art, and design. She simultaneously holds the energies of The Fool and The Tower. Through her business, Magic with Mellie, magic becomes a lived practice of presence, perception, and showing up outside the box on a daily basis. Whether leading a class, creating artwork, or supporting clients through branding and web-related work, she is known for her catalytic impact. Rather than delivering fixed outcomes, she luxuriates in evolving processes to open perception, shift fields, and offer magic that continues unfolding long after a moment has passed. Mellie is a single mom and sole provider for a brilliant teenage son. They currently live in the mountains of Western Colorado, surrounded by landscapes that continually inspire. WEBSITE: Https://magicwithmellie.com INSTAGRAM: Https://instagram.com/magicwithmellie

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Learn More about The Magician's Table: The Magician's Table is a 3-month container for personal growth, community connection, and practice growing one's tools as an intuitive and magical practitioner. Doors open on Sunday, February 22nd, with an early bird window and a Pick Your Tuition model offered on a first-come, first-served basis. Britten invites you to take your time attuning to the container, exploring the course page, and feeling into whether this experience is a true yes for you. Join the waitlist: ​​https://mailchi.mp/brittenlarue/tmt-2026-waitlist Visit the course page: https://brittenlarue.com/course/the-magicians-table/

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Introducing the 13th Readers for 2026: Arizona Smith: @arizonasmithhealing Leanne Thurogood: @oftheearthesoteric Lily Hussey: @goodhussey Suprasensory Shahir: @suprasensoryshahir

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Learn More about The Dream Real: Coming February 20, as you may well know, we have a major astrological moment in time. The planet of Dream (Neptune) conjoins the planet of Realization (Saturn) at the ZERO degree of Aries, the very first degree of the whole zodiac. This is rare. This matters. This is the moment. You are invited to join us for The Dream Real: a global spell for personal an

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