Trust Me: Cults, Extreme Belief, and Manipulation

Sarah Edmondson, Part 2 - DOS, Disillusionment, and Leaving Keith Raniere

Trust Me: Cults, Extreme Belief, and Manipulation

Show Notes

This week is part 2 with Sarah Edmondson, NXIVM survivor, author, and host of A Little Bit Culty. The girls pick back up as Sarah goes deeper into the organization, eventually entering DOS and confronting the growing contradictions inside NXIVM. She’ll discuss the emotional grip of the group, the normalization of control, and the psychological unraveling that began once the cracks became impossible to ignore. Sarah also opens up about loyalty, fear, cognitive dissonance, and the terrifying process of realizing the self-help system she devoted years to was built around manipulation. The conversation explores deconstruction in real time, what finally pushed her to question Keith Raniere, and how leaving meant rebuilding her entire sense of self. SOURCES A Little Bit Culty See omnystudio.com/listener for privacy information.

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