NICU during lockdown, OCD & pregnancy after birth trauma with Tori from season 1 | S3E43
The NICU Space by Miracle MoonShow Notes
It’s been five years since the first COVID lockdown – it’s gone so fast and feels so long ago all at once. In that time, our guest Tori, from season one, has watched her little girl Phoenix grow into a happy, healthy five-year-old – after she was born at just 25 weeks. Tori herself has processed her trauma after NICU using EMDR, and is now 25 weeks pregnant again. Tori talks about the fact that she isn’t afraid of what the future holds for this baby, NICU or not. She’s massively worked on her OCD and health anxiety and felt ready to have another baby – this time with all the excitement and joy she didn’t feel she could have after the first time. But how? Tori opens up in today’s episode, and Georgie also reflects on how incredibly similar her own mental health challenges have been too.
🔥 In this episode, we’re chatting about: ⭐ Our guest Tori’s experience of giving birth to baby Phoenix at just 25 weeks at the start of the first COVID lockdown ⭐ What impact the lockdowns had on Tori’s pre-existing OCD and health anxiety ⭐️ Tori’s fears of how NICU and lockdowns might affect Phoenix, and being unable to see family for such a long time ⭐️ How Tori has processed her trauma after NICU using different types of therapy ⭐️ How Tori decided she wanted to have another baby ⭐️ How Tori feels now that she’s reached 25 weeks pregnant again and why she’s not fearful of another NICU experience
If you would love to have another baby, but are worried about going through NICU again, this episode will help you see there may be a way forward.
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