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In episode 77 of F The Stigma Podcast, host Laisha Martinez sits down with Keta Loren who grew up in foster care, was in juvenile hall by age 10, and in the California Youth Authority by 14. Today she’s a recovery advocate, singer-songwriter, podcast host, and author of the memoir Gutter Kid. In this raw episode of the Fuck The Stigma Podcast, Keta shares how she survived addiction, trauma, and mental illness, including the Christmas house fire that took four of her siblings when she was seven. She talks about living with bipolar disorder, borderline personality disorder (BPD), and PTSD, why she believes trauma is the gateway to addiction, and how she healed her abandonment wounds. She also opens up about 13 years in recovery, her time homeless, relapse stigma, how a $47 money order led to a rehab scholarship, and the difference between enabling and supporting someone you love.If you’re struggling with addiction, foster care trauma, or mental health challenges, this is a reminder that change is possible. If she can do it, so can you.Don’t forget to like, comment, and subscribe for more conversations that challenge stigma and bring awareness to mental health and addiction.Keta's Links Instagram | https://www.instagram.com/iamketaloren/Podcast | https://www.youtube.com/@UCfAyBdzMgeH4sDh8sbSrjHw Chapters |0:00 Meet Keta Loren: Singer, Author & Podcast Host1:41 Life Gives You a Chance to Quit Right Before the Breakthrough3:35 Gutter Kid: Growing Up Without a Safe Place to Land5:21 Juvenile Hall at 10 & the Pizza Party Felony7:27 California Youth Authority at 148:16 Growing Up in Red Bluff & Parents Who Met in a Group Home11:14 The Christmas House Fire That Took Four Siblings12:36 Loving a Father With Schizoaffective Disorder14:20 Living With Bipolar, BPD & Manic Episodes16:01 From Hurricane to Undertow: Emotional Regulation17:24 Finding the Root of a Trigger (Abandonment Wounds)21:39 Believing You're Unlovable & Learning to Be Loved23:45 Scared but Safe: Looking for Proof in Relationships26:42 The Triple Threat: Trauma, Addiction & Mental Health29:21 Borderline Personality Disorder Explained31:17 Healing Through Friendships With Women34:44 "I've Died and Been Reborn Six Times"36:00 Personal Responsibility & Refusing to Be a Statistic37:30 Foster Care Over-Medication & Finally Getting Help39:09 "I'm Not an Outlier": Proof That Healing Is Possible40:47 13 Years in Recovery & the Truth About Relapse47:47 Ayahuasca, Pain Meds & Using Intention50:20 Why Relapse Carries So Much Stigma52:34 Anxiety, Purpose & Choosing Your Story56:03 Go 3 Days Without Food or Water: What Addiction Feels Like57:18 "Hell Has a Basement": Rock Bottom on a Bus Bench58:48 Asking for Help When You've Burned Every Bridge1:00:34 The $47 Money Order & the Rehab Scholarship1:03:19 "Only One of You Will Make It"1:03:44 Stigma, Compassion & Loving Someone in Addiction1:05:11 Enabling vs. Support: Finding the Middle Ground1:07:24 Where to Find Keta Loren & Gutter KidFollow us! Instagram | https://instagram.com/fthestigmapodTikTok | https://www.tiktok.com/@fthestigmaFacebook | https://www.facebook.com/fthestigmapodWebsite | www.fthestigma.comPod links |Spotify | https://open.spotify.com/show/46dw6sl5t344p6PlBcykb3Apple Podcast | https://podcasts.apple.com/gb/podcast/f-ck-the-stigma/id1691599224Tags in this video ↓fthestigma, podcast, addiction, recovery, trauma, anxiety, depression, ptsd, mentalhealth, mentalillness, vulnerability, youth, healthandwellness, god, sobriety, relapse, treatment, loss, grief, addicts, recovery, addict, relationships, psychological, experience, spiritual, spirituality, alcoholic, addiction recovery, insanity, psychosis, story, neglect, jail, prescription, alcoholism, treatment, diagnosis, prison, criminal, psychology, doctor, dealer, felony, felonies, forgiveness, spiritual, DUI, 5150, psych wards,
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