Buddha at the Gas Pump

733. Aedamar Kirrane

Buddha at the Gas Pump

Show Notes

Aedamar Kirrane - Mystical Awakening & Divine Love 

Former barrister turned philosopher and writer, Aedamar Kirrane experienced a spontaneous mystical awakening that began in 2015 and continues to unfold. Unable to find any support or understanding within her own Christian tradition she embarked on a deep enquiry to understand the inner dynamics and telos of awakening. She came to believe in life as an original blessing rather than the doctrine of original sin that she thinks has destroyed our sense of ourselves as sacred beings.

Her spiritual autobiography is Light on Fire: Waking Up to Divine Love, published 2021. Through ongoing reflection and curiosity she has developed her own threefold mystical cosmology that understands creation in the pattern of exodus and return; that recognises all of life as sacred, described through the concept of panentheism; and that the purpose of human life is deification or the return to our divine state while still in human form.

All this is set within the context of the Great Awakening we are living through now, of which the human experience is a micro version. She has come to recognise that spontaneity is characteristic of the human experience of an evolutionary shift in consciousness. Aedamar's awakening is mediated through her mystical and spiritual writing and she recognises sacred writing as its own spiritual path that she calls The Via Scriptoria.

Aedamar's visions are published on aedamarkirrane.com. She blogs at The New Scriptorium.

Aedamar will be opening a wisdom school called "The Mystical Birth of the True Self" in September. It will be a nine month programme to support awakening to our inner divinity. If you would like to be notified when it is formally announced please visit her website to sign up for her newsletter or sign up here.

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Summary and transcript of this interview

Interview recorded June 21, 2025

YouTube Video Chapters:

00:00:00 - Reentering the Womb of Christ  00:03:40 - Life as a Lawyer, Wife, and Mother  00:07:00 - Motherhood, Postnatal Depression, and a Spiritual Opening  00:13:12 - A Glimpse of the Grail: The 2007 Vision  00:22:07 - Finding a Framework in Philosophy  00:28:23 - The Sacred Fire: A Spontaneous Kundalini Awakening  00:41:03 - Losing the Self, Merging with Love  00:46:44 - A Warning: The Dangers of a Reckless Teacher  00:55:52 - Navigating the Question of Sanity  01:02:30 - Humility as an Antidote to Spiritual Inflation  01:09:03 - A Message of Love from the Christ  01:14:24 - The Great Separation: A Broken World  01:25:09 - The Great Awakening: A New Era is Being Born  01:41:01 - The Return of the Feminine  01:46:41 - Advice for the Seeker: What To Do With Longing  01:53:52 - The Path to Unity Consciousness  01:56:45 - The Invitation: Become Kindling in the Fire of Love  02:00:25 - Closing Remarks

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