Get to know OCD

My OCD Made Me Believe I Was A Monster

Get to know OCD

Show Notes

When Molly was a teenager, a single intrusive thought sent her into years of fear, panic, and silence. What started as one terrifying “what if?” quickly spiraled into constant doubts about who she was, what her thoughts meant, and whether she was secretly a horrible person.

In this episode of the Get to Know OCD podcast, Molly opens up about living with pedophilia OCD — a taboo thought she hid for years and years because she genuinely believed it meant something terrible about her. She also shares what it was like spending her teenage years trapped in nonstop fear and mental checking, why the thoughts felt so painfully real, and how finally learning what OCD actually was changed the course of her life.

At NOCD, we specialize in exposure and response prevention (ERP) therapy, the most effective treatment for OCD—a treatment that can help you live a fulfilling life. If you’re ready to take your first step, book a free 15-minute call with us at https://learn.nocd.com/YT

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