Show Notes
A lot of gay men take pride in being independent, self-sufficient and in control. But is there a shadow side? When the time comes to let someone in, ask for support, or even rely on others—it feels uncomfortable, exposing, even threatening.
In this episode, we explore the spectrum between dependence, co-dependence, independence, hyper-independence, and interdependence—and why so many gay men get stuck at the far end of doing life alone. We talk about:
What hyper-independence actually is (and why it’s so common)
The fear of losing yourself, your freedom, or your identity
Why intimacy feels harder than being alone
How this shows up in dating, relationships, and asking for support
What it looks like to move toward interdependence (secure attachment)
This isn’t about becoming dependent. It’s about learning how to find a happy middle ground where you can let someone in without losing yourself or pulling further away.
Today's Hosts:
Matt Landsiedel
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