Show Notes
[Ep 1 of 4] Inside a locked diary are the hopes and dreams of a little girl who wants one thing more than everything else: this little girl wants to be wanted. [TW: SA] When the little girl becomes a teenager and her deepest want comes to pass, it turns out she doesn't want it. She wanted. . . something else. Something more? Something less? Something sweeter. She doesn't know exactly what she wants, but she learns the hard way what she does not want. "Advance" a non-psychedelic trip into my girlhood was originally produced in May 2017. It was named after the type of advance that is made flirtatiously (or threateningly or shyly and on and on). In this 2025 update we lean into the double meaning: HAVE WE ADVANCED ON THESE ISSUES SINCE 2017? OR HAVE WE...RETREATED? ['retreat' is listed as the opposite of the word 'advance' on dictionary dot com. Not a word we generally use in reference to this topic, and yet it feels like an interesting way to look at what we usually call "regression"]. Listen to decide for yourself, and then send us a voicememo with your thoughts to [email protected]. 2025 UPDATE FROM KP: Drove by North Dundas the other day on a joyride. The smoking tree is not small anymore. DONATE to support the creation of a final episode detailing all that happened after this famed series aired; friendships rekindled, apologies made, mistakes repeated, lessons learned and unlearned and never learned and will we ever learn.
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More from The Heart
Summer is over. Fall begins. Out of a reverence, romance and preparation for Canadian winter: we go back in time to January when KP was trapped in the Briargreen suburb of Nepean due to the snow. Biking anywhere: impossible. Learner's permit preventing any adventure drives without parental accompaniment. Parental presence preventing any stealings of the car for adventure drives. G-o-d helps out and invents a bar named after audio gear of old, waiting to be found across the Pinecrest cemetery full of heart shaped tombstones. Donate to the unemployed philosophers guild AKA directly to KP HERE. Thank you so much to all who have donated. Gifts are coming soon.
SUMMER ADVENTURE THROWBACK SPECIAL FROM ANCIENT HISTORY 2009. Circle K Max protection. Three women hitchhike across NewFoundland. Three soon-to-be-life-long-friends sing the Beatles waiting for a ride to Gros Mourne. Three become one: Two fly home and one slinky red dress wearing 23 yr old waits by the highway. One black cost-co leggings wearing 40 yr old is horrified at the courage and naivity of her former self. Circle KP Max Protection. [thank you god].
Stealing the car to drive to a fancier suburb for yoga and coffee. Micro-dosing mushrooms. Reflections on rules broken and rules followed. Suicidal ideation spoken ofin a blasé and non-plussed manner. Therapy session wherein KP assures therapist in too much detail that she is not in danger of taking a step. I LOVE MY LIFE. True or False. Now or Then. The great return: being stressed about money. Guild Propaganda: (Some) More mysteries are revealed. (But no secrets. All secrets have been NOT revealed. Or; kept. Donate to the guild here. Khalo be with you*.) Donations through this show or this company or this artist go straight to this show this company this artist. Thank you for sharing the fruits of your labour so more labour can make more fruit.)* *but not with the organization per se, nor its fundraising. Khalo is present in apparition capacities only. *if art were a fruit, what fruit would it be? What fruit would your work be? Your art?
One year ago in June 2025 wearing combat boots in bed I watch Man on the Moon. A mad genius performs as a mad genius. Mozart dies writing death music in the director's cut of Amadeus. Two films by one director doing studies of artistic madness. A mad genius of radio tells me about the Tibetan Book of the Dead and I reflect on heaven and hell, after returning from a festival in Ireland hosted by another mad genius. For all of you so inclined (who, like me, can't help it but waste a lot of effort trying to): LET THIS BE THE WEEK OF MADNESS. (And please g-o-d: let genius be the result.) Listen to Scott Carrier talking to people in Beirut (May 2026). Thank you g-o-d for the genius and the madness of Diarmuid MacIntyre and the welcoming hearts of Kilfinane. Donate to the unemployed philosophers guild here!
The sound of the water in a river in Wissahickon, Philadelphia. An episode in honour of organizers. Greg aka my dad learns that most of the time we call "activism" "organizing" now. We listen to an episode made by Yowei Shaw, the investigative journalist of emotion. Nicole is an organizer who’s afraid to stop being angry. At the same time she is afraid NOT to stop being angry. Yowei connects Nicole with what she calls a "proxy"; someone who has experienced something similar. Lucky for us, this proxy is Deborah Gould, a member emeritus of the ICONIC gay rights organization: ACT UP. Happy pride month beautiesssss xoxo