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The Art of Memoir and Stories of Conversion w/ George Dardess | Ep. 35

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Politics behind the scenes: A rare glimpse behind the curtain as Van, Lyle, and guest George Dardess talk about about memoir and stories of conversion. They discuss their own experiences relating to Monterey, California and the Defense Language Institute before getting into personal radicalization, the art of close reading, and the question of conscience that looms louder until it consumes you—which side are you on? This conversation took place prior to recording a forthcoming episode about the film Downfall (although we’re releasing a few episodes ahead of Downfall). Good thing the mics were on, because this conversation has haunted Van (in a good way) ever since. Further Reading Lyle’s memoir Colette’s memoir A selection of George’s writing Traudl Junge’s memoir The next episode to drop: Guy Ritchie’s The Covenant!

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