Show Notes
What if the thing you call your personality is actually something you learned to perform in order to survive?Ashley Townsend is a transformational and integration coach and complex trauma recovery specialist who spent 15 years working inside the mental health system before deciding that traditional labels and approaches were no longer enough.In this conversation, Ashley and I go straight into what made her become a self-described “former LCSW gone rogue.” We talk about what she witnessed working across domestic violence, addiction, foster care and trauma treatment, and how being blind shaped her own experience of trying to belong inside systems that often failed to see the whole person. Ashley also challenges the idea that personality is fixed, arguing that some of what we call personality may actually be protection we practiced until it became familiar.Then the conversation gets even deeper. Ashley shares how she performed being the “nice girl,” performed being sighted as she progressively lost her vision, and eventually performed the role of rescuer, believing she could carry systems and other people on her back. We explore why those protections were once brilliant, why they eventually become heavy, and what happens when we stop building our lives from fear and begin creating from love. In this episode:Complex trauma and the protective patterns underneath behavior Why Ashley chose to leave the traditional therapy model Disability advocacy and the experience of performing being sighted Mental health diagnoses, labels and the limitations of treating personality as fixed Why “just do it” can completely miss the context of trauma The difference between an explanation and an excuse Recovery as an ongoing process rather than a finish line Psychedelic preparation and integration, and why Ashley does not view psychedelics as a magic fix The “nice girl,” the rescuer and other identities we perform to belong Self-trust, play, the inner child and why healing does not always have to hurt What becomes possible when we stop fighting everything and start creating from love
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