Show Notes
In this episode, I talk to Queenderella - sex, intimacy and relationship educator, event and retreat organizer, and someone who has dedicated her life to creating spaces where people can explore themselves with curiosity instead of shame.
This conversation is ridiculously funny, honest, and full of unexpected stories. We talk about growing up in Indonesia, how childhood shaped the way she sees love and relationships, why she doesn't believe monogamy is the only answer, what it really means to build an open relationship, and how even someone who rarely gets jealous can still be caught completely off guard.
We also dive into first sexual experiences, discovering submission, the myths we grow up believing about sex, porn, BDSM, fantasies, and the path that eventually led Queenderella to become one of Indonesia's most recognizable voices in sex education.
There are plenty of laughs, a few very spicy stories, and, as always, a lot of honest conversations about the things people usually keep to themselves. If you have an interesting story to tell on kink, BDSM, contact me at [email protected] or sign up for our IG https://www.instagram.com/kinkmeslow
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