Show Notes
It took Joakim a lifetime to understand to what extent growing up in the org controlled parts of his life, how he related to emotions, himself and others, how black and white in his choices, opinions and thinking he was. How it affected his #relationships.
How he for 23 years convinced himself that Addiction is just fun, he couldn't understand why people did not want to take drugs, a bit like a witness might think that people who have access to the truth and don't live by it are stupid. Though he was a little bit smarter a little better than others. Lived in the periphery of society which leads to always feeling left out, unwelcome, less than, or excluded. Without understanding that he felt flawed and like someone who didn't deserve to belong.
He went from s*icidal into #rehab and discovered Bessel Van Der Kolk and Peter Levine's view on trauma and childhood adaptations and how it manifests in the body and nervous system. And Gabor Mates modality Compassionate Inquiry a somatic-based psychotherapeutic approach. Through this, Joakim began to heal and change the conditioning or actually, the trauma responses that arose and remained from the org and family dynamics to recognize and change the unconscious #beliefs that were residing in the nervous system.
Now Joakim has trained in Compassionate Inquiry and works individually and in groups on zoom with #exjws co-creating a safe, compassionate, and accepting relational space to heal the disconnection that initially occurred in relation to parents, family, #god, and the org. He lives free and happy in Stockholm, Sweden with his 10-year-old twins.
CONTACT Joakim: Instagram: @joakim_le_bolloch_appell TikTok Website: www.co-compassion.com
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