
Ep 175. A Rapid Road to Rock Bottom and Finding a Life Worth Living, with Rosie Eldershaw
Behind The Smile with Ash ButterssShow Notes
This week, Ash sits down with Rosie Eldershaw, a country girl turned Melburnian who recently celebrated three years of sobriety after multiple rehabs and several near-fatal rock bottoms. Rosie shares how her drinking progressed from nightly wine to 24/7 spirits and drugs, and how she kept a bubbly, high-functioning facade while quietly falling apart inside. She speaks honestly about seizures, the shame of drinking hand sanitiser and mouthwash, and the terror of knowing something was very wrong but feeling powerless to stop.
Rosie reflects on the turning points that finally stuck: finding a 12-step program, allowing others to help, and building a simple, peaceful life she genuinely enjoys with yoga, dog parks, her partner and her dog. This is a grounded, hopeful conversation about ownership, spirituality, and the non-negotiables that now protect her sobriety and happiness.
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Episode chapters: 00:00 Introduction and Journey of Transformation 03:01 Rosie's Story of Sobriety 05:56 The Struggles Behind the Smile 08:57 The Dangerous Path of Alcoholism 12:07 Childhood and Early Influences 14:48 The Progression of Drinking 17:58 Family Concerns and Consequences 20:54 The Desperation of Addiction 23:55 The Journey to Rehab 26:28 The Journey Through Rehab 29:00 The Turning Point: A Meeting That Changed Everything 32:52 Embracing Spirituality in Recovery 36:57 Overcoming the Ego: Finding a Higher Power 40:46 Living One Day at a Time 46:29 Building Healthy Relationships in Sobriety 53:24 Non-Negotiables for a Happy Life
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