Show Notes
This week, talent agent Yan Javeri joins me for part one of a two-part conversation. We go back to a childhood built on practicality rather than explanation, being sent to boarding school at eight while his brother stayed home, and the years he spent quietly studying other people to work out how to belong. It's a story about camouflage, and what it costs to build a version of yourself just to fit in.
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References mentioned in this episode: - University of Westminster, Harrow campus (formerly Harrow School of Art, where Yan studied): https://arts.westminster.ac.uk/history
CONTENT WARNINGS - FAMILY ESTRANGEMENT - BOARDING SCHOOL SEPARATION AT A YOUNG AGE - BULLYING - AN EMOTIONALLY UNHEALTHY EARLY RELATIONSHIP
CHAPTERS 00:00 Intro 03:08 Four pages of prep, and a year of therapy 07:32 Always structured: mapping things out to feel in control 08:24 A childhood of sensory overload and no explanations 09:38 Sent to boarding school at eight, while his brother stayed home 14:40 Negotiating his way back to state school 15:38 The crocodile briefcase: culture shock in Essex 19:59 Studying the popular kids, and building a version of himself 23:34 Art school, his first boyfriend, and getting in by fibbing 25:13 Fearless at Harrow: cleaning toilets at 4am for his freedom 31:48 An invitation to Geneva
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