Show Notes
Jonathan Blake was one of the first people in the UK diagnosed with HIV, back in 1982 — and one of the real-life figures the film Pride is based on. In this episode, he joins Christopher to talk about coming out, surviving an HIV diagnosis he was never expected to outlive, decades of activism, and what it means to build an authentic life against the odds.
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References mentioned in this episode: Terrence Higgins Trust — https://tht.org.uk/ Lesbians and Gays Support the Miners (LGSM) — https://lgsm.org/ It's a Sin (Channel 4) — https://www.channel4.com/programmes/its-a-sin/ The Fitzrovia Chapel — https://www.fitzroviachapel.org/ AIDS Advert - https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=iroty5zwOVw
CONTENT WARNING — THIS EPISODE DISCUSSES: - SUICIDE ATTEMPT - HIV/AIDS DIAGNOSIS AND TERMINAL PROGNOSIS - DEATH AND GRIEF - FAMILY REJECTION - RECREATIONAL DRUG USE
Chapters: - 00:01:38 Meet Jonathan Blake: Actor, Activist & Real-Life Pride Character - 00:05:30 Young Jonathan: Growing Up Queer in 1950s Birmingham - 00:08:18 Discovering Theatre & Deciding to Become an Actor - 00:12:06 Coming Out to His Family at 21 - 00:16:29 Close Calls Before Coming Out - 00:20:09 Choosing to Rejoin the World After an HIV Diagnosis - 00:22:16 The Symptoms: "I Was Walking Like a Gorilla" - 00:26:30 Getting Tested at the Clinic - 00:27:06 The Diagnosis: "You Have Three to Six Months to Live" - 00:29:25 Terrence Higgins & the Roots of the Terrence Higgins Trust - 00:33:02 Thatcher's Government, Norman Fowler & the Fight for HIV Funding - 00:35:08 How HIV Changed Nursing Care Forever - 00:36:24 "We Are Still Here," It's a Sin & the HIV/COVID Parallel - 00:40:11 A Suicide Attempt & the Turning Point - 00:41:17 Finding CND & the Ad in Capital Gay - 00:42:47 Meeting Nigel at the Demonstration - 00:43:46 The Greenham Common Human Chain - 00:45:13 Moving Into a Brixton Squat With Nigel - 00:47:15 "Displacement Activity" & Living With a Terminal Diagnosis - 00:48:14 Princess Diana, the Middlesex Hospital & the Fitzrovia Chapel - 00:49:55 "How Did You Survive It?" - 00:51:28 Lesbians and Gays Support the Miners: The Real Story Behind Pride - 00:54:41 39 Years With Nigel: Love, Friendship & Being "Good Mates" - 00:55:21 What Does Authentic Queer Life Look Like at 76? - 00:56:05 Growing Older as a Queer Person & the Need for Safe Spaces - 00:58:15 Jonathan's Advice to Queer People in Their 20s and 30s - 00:59:16 Closing Thoughts
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